@funandedgy: Fact is I wish he was smart enough to make a second chance with ME count. Unfortunately he's already publicized his suicide date July 11th. :( And HE is still with HER the married HO. He says he isn't and then he is again ???. He is still friends with his X lovers after he said he wasn't. I still love HIM and I forgive HIM. And I want a relationship based on integrity. And I am an idiot because my heart only wants to love him more.